This is very profound and thoughtful. People tell us we should be “happy” and question why we aren’t.
Even more so when we are children, adults don’t understand that children can experience pain just as deeply as they do. I don’t know very many children that had truly happy and carefree childhoods. Bullying and peer pressure and parental pressure piled onto the child’s own fears and feelings.
Your pain has given you some deep insight and I’m glad you shared this.