I am so sorry that happened to you. It makes me sad that you felt you were a burden. Let me share a true story. A woman I love very much was viciously raped as a young teen. She was barely out of puberty. She cried endlessly, had nightmares, couldn't go outside alone. If she had gotten pregnant (thank god she did not) I could not have looked her in the face and told her she "has to" have the child. I could not. I held her after the rape and I could not tell her that. BUT -- that said, if she had gotten pregnant and had her rapists child, I would be the first to say the child is not a burden. The child is not at fault. The child did not have any choice in the circumstances of the birth. They are separate topics. Both painful. So painful. But different topics all the same. Does that make sense?